When I was in high school I had a million things going on. In the fall, my focus was cross-country. In the winter, I was prepping for track and soccer in the spring. I played the cello, I was the school’s news anchor, I was in a few plays and musicals, and I volunteered whenever possible. I was determined to be the best athlete, student, daughter, sister, and friend possible. My social life wasn’t as exciting as I wanted, but I put my head down and focused on sports and my studies.

Then, one day after a track meet my…

In less than a week, I accepted my first “big girl” internship, bought my first car, (a 2010 Corolla, it’s the cutest thing ever) and got approved for an apartment with my boyfriend in Portland. For being someone who likes to have a plan and everything in order, I am kind of freaking out.

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They see me rollin’ (they hatin’).

I am about to start a brand new, exciting chapter of my life. A good friend said I should take the time to reflect back on how I am currently feeling, and my time at SOU. Eli Stillman, here is my 2019 time capsule.

Current Feelings

About a…

Last time you heard from me, I finished up my cross-country career. After reflecting back months later, I am so fortunate to have such a great last memory of the sport.

Once winter break started, I took full advantage of the time off. I went to Disneyland with my boyfriend and his family, and then showed him Alaska for the first time. I was having a blast, but I lost my voice in Disneyland and then got very sick while back home. I was coughing a bunch and trying to start training for track. One day, as I started to…

About a month ago, I finished my last ever cross-country race. This sport has been very near and dear to my heart for as long as I can remember, and has been a large part of my identity. Though I will still have one year of indoor and outdoor track eligibility left, cross-country is the time of year that was my favorite. The cold, muddy, and hilly courses show true grit, and running in circles in not my favorite.

Eric Ghelfi, a former SOU runner who has taught me so much in my four years wrote a blog post where…

It has been awhile! Here are some things that have happened in the past few months. We’ll go into each thing with more detail soon.

1: I am in a boot.

2: I went to Europe!

3: I am about to start my senior year of college.

Yup, I am currently writing this in a coffee shop with a dress, one Birkenstock, and a boot that goes up to my knee on my left foot. Some weird stuff has happened, but I am okay! I am only in it for a week to heal somethings. More on this later.

I…

First of all, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for reading this.

About a year ago, I was depressed, lonely, and sick. I wrote an article that opened up a conversation, and I was welcomed into open arms by so many people with encouraging comments, texts, and phone calls. I felt the love, and I was inspired. I knew I would overcome this eating disorder. I dreamed of the day where I wouldn’t overexercise. I couldn’t wait to travel and eat whatever I wanted because it sounded delicious. I wanted to think of food as fuel.

Friends, I…

About a year ago, my team drove up to Seattle to compete at an indoor track meet. Though both teams qualified for nationals, I was more focused on how big my legs looked in pictures, worried friends and family would think I’m “letting myself go.”

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It has been a year, and our team did the same drive, same race, and same post-race photo. So much has happened in a year, like practicing self care, overcoming an injury, and not being so hard on myself.

All of these things culminated into one of the most challenging and rewarding years of my…

Ever since I posted, “The Harsh Reality of Cute Instagram Pictures” I have been so lucky to have received such positive feedback from so many people. Family members, friends, strangers, and even some of my professors gave me praise, and some shared personal stories of their struggles with their own eating disorder battles. Receiving this feedback was so wonderful and inspiring that I became more motivated to fully recover from this dark time in my life.

Things were going great. I started hanging out with the best people ever who introduced me to new foods, ideas, helped me travel outside…

Dear future daughter of mine,

This whole letter thing is odd because I am currently 19 and can barely take care of myself, but I think in a few years I’ll figure it out.

First of all, welcome to the world. Please don’t take it for granted. Appreciate the trees, clouds, sun, moon, dirt, flowers, and people around you, for they will not be here forever. NEVER, I repeat, NEVER litter. Treat the earth like your best friends house. Explore, but never, ever trash it, because someone will have to clean up after you, and that isn’t cool.

Treat yourself…

I can proudly say that my sophomore year of college is over. Thank freakin’ goodness. I will try not to sound dramatic when I say this, but this past year has been the hardest year of my life. People I loved, (including myself) turned on me and I didn’t have any idea on where to go.

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Really beautiful drawing of one part of life I struggled with this past school year.

To try to get you to imagine the way I was feeling this year, pretend like you are sleeping, someone wakes you up, blindfolds you, drags you to a place you’ve never been, and there is no one around. …

Kayle Blackmore

Runner, recent college graduate, Alaska loving, Oregon living.

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